It is obvious how we get ourselves bewildered. We try to be perfect. We try to do it all. We try to keep everyone happy. And…we secretly believe we need no help from God. What we create is a whirlwind, and there is no way to catch the wind.
Being bewildered is an attitude of grandiosity and a complete lack of humility. Bewilderment is to be left eternally in the wilderness, with no hope of finding a promised land.
When I am bewildered I am worried about everything. My anxiety is on high alert, and my fears have consumed my faith. When I am bewildered I am isolated and alone, and feel alienated from everyone on the planet. I feel anonymous, unnecessary, and shattered into shards or fragments.
Being bewildered is akin to being caught on the carnival ride which spins us so fast, we are glued to a mesh cylinder wall until the floor falls away. Trusting the wall to hold us is like the American e pursuit of the good life. We believe moving faster is the secret to getting there, when the true key is slowing down and stopping altogether.
A key characteristic of Lent is slow. It is giving ourselves the time to stop and smell the roses, and to savor a dawn or dusk, and it is knowing that rushing adds nothing to the quantity or quality of our days.
During Lent we gain an ease and comfort with being lost. It's during Lent we begin to carefully mark the path to our pilgrimage. It's during Lent that we take steps in the direction of locating the Kingdom. It's in Lent that we finally walk the walk.
Think of Lent as a soupy soft grey fog which makes you stop motion of any kind. Since you cannot see where you are going, you are wise enough to rest and relax and embrace the stillness. Lent is having the patience and perseverance to wait for the fog to lift, because it always does, and it always will.
O, Lord of Lent, help us to slow way down, and free us to see and hear and feel and taste and smell. Enable us to come to our senses. Bring us down to earth. Let come back to the joy of being human and fully alive. Let us recognize there is no wisdom to be found in a rush, and the busyness creates only weariness and emptiness. Amen.
Reverend William R. Grimbol has spent the past 30+ years helping people create and develop strong spiritual connections with loved ones and God. He is also a published author, with over a dozen books to his credit.